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A new start

Posted by Haris Gulzar on July 5, 2010

Hello everyone :-). Its been long since I wrote anything or since I visited any blogs and commented on them. I haven’t regularly blogged for 4 months now. Have totally been out of touch with my blog, and I have badly missed it. But there is a good news as well :-). I am finally done with my MBA Alhamdulillah, and above all, Im back in Lahore. Although I still have to go to Karachi for a Comprehensive exam, but that’ll be a short trip Insha-Allah…

Well, actually I came back to Lahore almost 15 days back, but didn’t have internet with me. It took me about 15 days to decide which internet service I wanted to use. Fortunately or unfortunately (the later seems more appropriate at this very moment :-(), I chose Worldcall. The packages that Worldcall was offering seemed somewhat reasonable. The first two days were fantastic too, infact not only fantastic, I was ACTUALLY impressed with Worldcall’s internet service. That’s how good it worked. But that was to last for two days only I suppose. Today it is so irritating me, the remote computer won’t agree to respond in a timely manner, in fact, it won’t respond at all at times. Even if it does, I’d just keep on refreshing the webpage in the hope for something to be displayed, only to see the ‘This webpage is not available’ message that Google Chrome keeps on displaying when it can’t open a web page. Sometimes the remote modem is out of order :-S. I hope Worldcall proves to be a worthy decision for me in future.

Anyways, it feels good to be back with family Alhamdulillah :-). Now I can enjoy mom ke hath ke parathay, apni marzi ke farmaishi khanay, and I can put my head in my mom’s lap and sleep. And now that I also have internet with me, I hope I stay in touch with all of my readers and with all the blogs I used to read (although at this very moment, Worldcall is so making me angry at its response, or at its no response I should rather say). Do stay around!


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25 Random points about me

Posted by Haris Gulzar on November 14, 2009

Finally, here is the post that Huda tagged me for. I’m extremely sorry for delaying it this much. And I had reasons as well. First of all, I was busy. And this is no lame excuse I tell you :-). Secondly, whatever I have been writing about recently, didn’t require any thinking at all, I mean it was just about my observation or feelings, and I just translated them into words. But this post really required some thinking. And third, I’m not good at listing things :-(…

Ohh well, these three points above could very well have been random points about me :-P. And I say this because I don’t know where to start writing about myself. But anyways, here are the 25 random things about me.

  1. I like winters. I like the start of them, when it starts to get foggy and all dewy early in the morning.
  2. I love sight seeing. One of my dreams is to visit the northern areas of Pakistan, all of them. Although I have been to many places already but I’d love to go there again and stay there for a long time.
  3. I think I’m a bit adventurous. I want to go bungee jump and scuba dive and do all those weird things that parents usually ask their children to stay away from… 🙂
  4. I can’t live without food. Well, obviously no one can live without food, but my case is a bit different. I eat A LOT. I live to eat.
  5. I like reading but not too much. I mean, if I see a good title, or one that appeals me and sounds interesting or a must read, I’d want to buy it but I can never be sure if I’d really read it or not. But I do try my best to find some time out of my schedule to read.
  6. I like collecting books. All types of them, and in all forms. I once had a huge, HUGE collection of E-books related to software engineering. I still have some novels that I bought thinking that I’d read them, but I haven’t still read them :-(. I want to have a library of my own. A small one, but having great titles.
  7. I like writing. This is something I really like doing. But haven’t been getting time recently to write much.
  8. I like reading poetry. In fact, I love reading poetry. I had such a huge collection of poetry at the time I resigned from work but I lost it (that was one bad experience :-(). I still have a good collection but its not as good as the one I had. Or probably I had associations with that poetry collection.
  9. I like listening to slow songs and ghazals. Old classical Indian songs are my favorites.
  10. I like singing as well. I once tried to perform in front of a small gathering, for auditions for an event, but I failed badly :-P. But I still like singing.
  11. I don’t have too many friends. Or I should rather say, I don’t have too many close friends, but the ones I have are just too special. I love them, and I can’t even think about losing them.
  12. I love rasmalayi. I so love it. I love all sweet dishes like Shahi tukray, Kheer, Halwa, Falooda but rasmalayi is so special.
  13. I love rice. I can even eat rice thrice a day, seven days a week.
  14. I like doing sports. My favorite sports are Table Tennis, volleyball (that’s probably because of my height), badminton, and cricket.
  15. I don’t know swimming. And that’s something I have always wanted to learn. Most of my cousins know it, my brother, my dad, my uncles, everyone knows it, but I don’t :-(. I don’t even know how my brother learnt it but he did and I still don’t know how to swim. But I’ll learn swimming, this is something I really want to do…
  16. I have recently been very confused with what I want to do with my life. I think I want to study and get a PhD. Or maybe not. Or maybe not now but a little later. Or maybe I’d just let this idea go. Not sure really.
  17. I am really trying very hard to control my anger. This is something I don’t have control over, and something that really puts me in bad situations at times.
  18. I love kids. I love their observations and how they learn. I love the way they know how to play with things one could never imagine playing with. I just love kids.
  19. And amazingly enough, kids somehow love me too. Or at least I think they love me :-).
  20. I have a weak memory. And an even weaker short term memory :-(. Not that I forget things every 15 minutes, but still, it isn’t too good. And people close to me know this very well :-).
  21. I think I’m a bit sensitive as well. I can easily get hurt. Maybe that’s because I easily trust people. I believe in people and in what they say.
  22. Ohh and that makes it another point about me, I trust people very easily :-).
  23. I forgive people easily as well. I don’t know why, but I do. Maybe this is in attempt to get rid of my anger that I do it, but I do.
  24. I want to do something big in life. I want to be remembered. Maybe through my writings (maybe one day I’ll write something worth remembering :-)), or maybe through my nature, or I don’t know through what, but I want to be remembered.
  25. I want to learn different languages. Don’t want to be perfect at each language, but just want to be able to understand the basics… Currently I’m TRYING to learn sindhi :-).

Well, this didn’t take much time. Actually it did take time, as I had to go and take a class after I had only written the first 15 points. But at least, this didn’t require much thinking :-). Almost everyone I know is tagged. So it can’t be 25 tags but I’ll tag the following.

Electrifying Pakistan

Think Success

Writing For life

Floating Thoughts

Shifting Paradigms

Thank you Huda for tagging me for this post.

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Busy was I

Posted by Haris Gulzar on August 24, 2009

I missed my blog. I missed all the blogs that I regularly read. I missed surfing and wasting time over the internet. I missed chatting with friends. I missed checking my emails. I missed my laptop. I think I wrote my last post on the 11th of this month. I remember thinking about writing a post on Independence day of Pakistan but didn’t get time for that. I dint get time for anything. I think I was busy, or was I?

Sometimes you’re busy and don’t get time to do tasks that you usually do. Sometimes this busyness is physical and sometimes it is mental. Talking about myself, in these past days that I have been out of touch from my blog, sometimes I was way too busy to even think about writing something, and sometimes I had ample time to write even 2 posts. But I was still busy. Sometimes I was busy physically, and sometimes I was busy mentally. It was a mix of everything.

I had lots and lots of topics to write about. Things I observed, things I thought needed some attention, things I have been going through etc. I so wanted to write at least something, even if not what I felt or what I wanted to say, but just anything, but again, I was probably busy. Many a times I started thinking about the title and the contents of my post, the way I’d go about structuring my sentences and the words I’d use to express myself, but I’d end up without time to write whatever there was in my mind.

Sometimes it happens that you write because you don’t have anything else to do. That’s when you don’t actually want to write, but you do. Sometimes you really really want to write, maybe just to let out your feelings and emotions, but you don’t. Sometimes you have so much to say, so much to tell, so much to share and get comments and feedback about, but you can’t.

Sometimes totally the opposite happens. You have all the time in this world to come up with whatever you want to write, to structure it, to recheck it and what not, but you aren’t the mood to write. That’s when you aren’t actually busy, but you still are busy. You’re busy mentally. Something inside your mind causes enough tension and burden on you that even after wanting to write, you can’t write.

And frankly speaking, I have no idea whatsoever about whatever I’ve written so far. Today I’m writing because I so want to write. I so want to express myself, though I don’t think I’m expressing myself, but at least I’m writing. Today I just don’t care if I’m physically busy or mentally busy, or both or none, I just want to write. I want to update my blog. I want to give time to other blogs that I read. I want to spend time with my laptop. I want to waste time over the internet…

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مشرقی لڑکے۔ ۔ ۔

Posted by Haris Gulzar on August 11, 2009

آپ  نے  اکثر  مشرقی  لڑکیوں  کا  ذکر  تو  سنا  ہوگا۔  مثال  کے  طور  پر  مشرقی  لڑکیاں  شرماتی  ہیں،  بڑوں  کے  سامنے  نہیں  بولتیں،  گھر  کے  کام  کاج  میں  اپنی  والدہ  کا  ہاتھ  بٹاتی  ہیں  اور  بہت  کم  عمر  میں  ہی  کھانے  پکانے  کا  شوق  پال  لیتی  ہیں  وغیرہ  وغیرہ۔ ۔ ۔  اکثر  کچھ  سگھڑ  لڑکیاں  دیکھ  کر  آپکے  ذہن  میں  مشرقی  لڑکی  کی  ایک  تصویر  بن  جاتی  ہوگی،  کہ  یہ  لڑکی  یقیناّ  ایسے  کرتی  ہوگی،  یہ  لڑکی  ویسے  کرتی  ہوگی۔  اکثر  لڑکیوں  کی  ایک  حرکت  پر  اس  کے  ساتھ  باقی  حرکات،  یا  ادائیں  منصوب  کر  دی  جاتی  ہیں۔  مگر  یہ  سب  مشرقی  لڑکوں  کے  ساتھ  کیوں  نہیں  ہوتا؟

اب  مثال  کے  طور  پر  کسی  مشرقی  لڑکے  سے  پوچھیں  کہ  تمہاری  شادی  کر  دیں؟  اگر  تو  وہ  واقعی  مشرقی  لڑکا  ہے،  یعنی  صرف  کہنے  کا  نہیں  بلکہ  اپنی  حرکات  اور  باتوں  سے  بھی  مشرقی  ہے،  تو  وہ  بھی  شرمائے  گا،  ٹھیک  اسی  طرح  جس  طرح  کوئی  مشرقی  لڑکی  شرماتی  ہے۔  بلکہ  میرے  خیال  میں  تو  آج  کے  دور  میں  لڑکی  کا  شادی  کا  ذکر  سن  کر  شرمانہ  بھی  بس  ایک  رواج  کی  حد  تک  محدود  رہ  گیا  ہے،  بلکہ  میں  تو  یہ  بھی  کہوں  گا  آج  کل  لڑکیاں  لڑکوں  سے  زیادہ  بولڈ  اور  اوپن  مائنڈڈ  ہیں۔

خیر،  ذکر  ہو  رہا  تھا  مشرقی  لڑکوں  کا۔  کچھ  دن  پہلے  میں  نے  ایک  پوسٹ لکھی  تھی  جس  میں  میں  نے  ذکر  کیا  کہ  کیسے  ایک  آنٹی  نے  میرے  مشرقی  پن  کا  فائدہ  اٹھانے  کی  کوشش کی۔  اور  تو  اور،  آنٹیوں  کو  اس  بات  کا  ذرا  بھی  ملال  نہیں  ہوتا  اگر  وہ  کسی  کا  حق  چھین  لیں،  شاید  اسکی  وجہ  یہ  ہے  کہ  مشرقی  خواتیں  کو  پتہ  ہوتا  ہے  کہ  مشرقی  لڑکے  ان  کا  لحاظ  کر  جائیں  گے۔

چاہے  کسی  دروازے  سے  نکل  رہے  ہوں،   ایک  مشرقی  لڑکا  ہمیشہ  خود  رکے  گا  اور  اپنے  سے  پہلے  خواتیں  کو  نکلنے  کا  موقع  دےگا۔  مانا  کہ  خواتین  کے  کچھ  اپنے  حقوق  ہیں  مگر  مشرقی  لڑکوں  کے  مشرقی  پن  کی  بھی  تو  عزّت  کرنی  چاہئے۔  اور  ظلم  کی  انتہا  یہ  کہ  مشرقی  لڑکے  جتنے  بھی  شریف  ہوں  اور  اپنے  مشرقی  پن  کا  مظاہرہ  کریں،  ان  کو  دیکھا  ہمیشہ  شق  کی  نگاہ  سے  جاتا  ہے۔  پتہ  نہیں  کیسے  دوست  ہونگے  اس  کے،  پتہ  نہیں  رات  گئے  تک  آفس  کے  نام  پر  کہاں  جاتا  ہوگا۔

کیا  مشرقی  لڑکے  کبھی  کسی  گنتی  میں  شمار  نہیں  کئے  جائیں  گے؟  کیا  مشرقی  لڑکوں  کا  یہی  مقدر  ہے۔ ۔ ۔

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Posted by Haris Gulzar on August 6, 2009

A couple of days back I went to the MAKRO cash and carry centre where I experienced aunty-ism at its best. Yeah that’s right. I was accompanying my brother’s family and I had control of the trolley. It was Sunday I guess, and was around evening time so the place was crowded. Almost all the checkout counters were full except one where there was an aunty putting the things she bought on the counter. I stood behind her waiting for my turn. Naturally, I kept some distance from the aunty in front of me.

Hardly a couple of minutes would have passed when another aunty swiftly brought her trolley and stood right between me and the aunty in front of me. She didn’t even look at me let aside asking me if she could take my place. I think I did mention that I can’t easily control my anger. My brother was looking at me as if he’d just eat me the very next second. He said “Why can’t you be careful’” and I was like, What can I do, she’s an AUNTY after all :-(. Me being a Mashraqi larka, couldn’t think of anything, and she just stood there as if she didn’t do anything. That was when I said:

Me: Excuse me.

Aunty: Yes.

Me: I was standing in line before you.

Aunty: Is that a line you’re standing in?

Me: I was keeping some distance because of the aunty in front of me.

Aunty: OK no problem.

Me: So…. will you please move?

Aunty: You can take your turn, I’m just standing here.

I don’t really know what she meant with this. She probably wanted me to push her out of the line and take control of my turn, because otherwise she wasn’t willing to move. That was when my Bhabi took control of things and moved our trolley right next to the aunty in front of us, who by now was almost done with checking out…

Aunty-ism isn’t it? :-P.

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Posted by Haris Gulzar on August 4, 2009

So, here comes the post that I, and probably a few of my readers have been waiting for. The post about the blogs I like :-). But before I proceed, I think I should give credit to Jman from where the title of my post iRead was inspired, which now becomes the inspiration for the title of this post. Thank you Jman :-).

As I mentioned earlier, I have been subscribing to a lot many blogs lately, and do also try to go through them. Most of the blogs I have subscribed to are just so wonderful that I really wait for my reader application to show some unread items from those blogs (After all, that’s why I subscribed to them :-P), but as a matter of fact, I cannot mention that many blogs here, and another matter of fact is, that some blogs are actually better than others (in my opinion), though again, others are not bad as well 🙂 (I just don’t know how to say that all the blogs are good, you get my point don’t you? :-P).

So, I’m mentioning the top three blogs in this post. Its not that there is a top 10 list or something, but these blogs, I think, are one step ahead. The list is as follows (in no particular order):

حالِ  دل:  This is an Urdu blog. The thing I like about this blog is, the posts are interesting, they have variety i.e. the author can write on just about every topic (that’s the idea I have about the writer), may it be the recipe of rasmalayi, or the way Mr. X President used to talk or about his personal experiences and observations. The style through which the author communicates to his readers is just fantastic.

Opening Hira’s Life: I just like this blog. I probably have many reasons for liking this blog but don’t have words to explain. The way feelings and emotions are expressed in each and every post, and the way the deepest of thoughts one can ever have are brought to surface is what I probably like about it. Another important reason for me to like this bog is, that I really get to learn from this blog, A LOT…

There is a life I will touch today: This blog is just so motivating and inspiring… Each and every post (almost, other than the Question of the day :-P) touches some aspect of life and explains how it should be dealt with. And the author probably has just too much free time. She supposedly has I-dont-know-how-many-blogs because fortunately (or otherwise) I have subscribed to many of yet-to-be-discovered blogs by this author. Every other item that my reader application says is unread, is by the author of this blog. I initially used to think that most of the blogs I have subscribed to are just so active, but later found out that, I was right… :-P. Because most of the blogs were by the author of this blog. (sorry for all this exaggeration :-P).

Now lets talk business. When am I getting my commission for publicity of the above blogs?

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The 10 Honest Things About Me

Posted by Haris Gulzar on July 24, 2009

Here’s the deal to do the Honest Tag:  tell your readers 10 things about you that they may or may not know, but are true. Tag ten people and be sure to let them know they’ve been tagged (a quick comment on their blog will do). Don’t forget to link back to the blogger who tagged you.


Ten Honest Things About Me (in no particular order):

1. I can’t control my anger, however hard I may try. I only realize afterwards that I shouldn’t have been that angry.

2. I hate making quick decisions. I always want to consult someone to ask him if the decision Im about to take is ok or not. Quick decisions is not my game…

3. I love children, and somehow children love me too 🙂

4. I trust people very easily. Or rather I should say, I always want to give people a chance by trusting on them. Though most of the times I have had bad experiences but still, I think it is better for everyone involved in whatever kind of situation, that people trust on each other.

5. I want to be known. I don’t know how, but I just want people to know me…

6. I love rasmalayi. I just love it (rasmalayi is an Urdu word, and I really dont know what its called in English or any other language, and I guess the beauty of this word, as well as the beauty of this dish lies primarily in its name)

7. I have to think very hard to come up with this list. This is the first time Im doing it and am already short of points…

8. And yeah, When I started my MBA, I thought I loved studying and that I’d go for a Law and a Philosophy degree as well, but now that one year of my MBA has passed Alhamdulillah, I think studying is no more my type of thing… Although I still want to have a degree in Law and Philosophy…

9. Sometimes I just want to take everything in my control. Its like I have confidence in myself and I know that if I were doing things that others always do wrong, I would have done it right. But that’s easier said than done 😦

10. I have limited friends, but those I have are just too special. Honestly, I just love my friends…

Thank you Nadia for tagging me. This was difficult but was fun as well. I’ll tag the following (in no particular order):

1. Jafar (His blog seems to have some problem, so I’m tagging Abdul Azeem instead)

2. Huda

3. Momal Mushtaq

4. Sana Altaf

5. Specs

6. Asad Ali

7. The Gori Wife

8. Leena S.

9. Ali Adnan

10. Rambler

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Posted by Haris Gulzar on June 14, 2009

I have had to struggle hard for getting an internet connection at my home. For the last one month, I have only been using dialup internet and don’t really have words to explain how angry and irritated I felt whenever I had to use the dialup internet. And the reason I use the word “struggle” for getting an internet connection is a long story.

For the last 1 year in Karachi, we had a reasonable internet service provided to us (sometimes on and sometimes off) in each of the hostel rooms. Sometimes facebook and youtube were banned and sometimes we didn’t have internet for a day or even two days, but sometimes not only all the sites were made accessible but we also got download speeds of near a 100Kbps. So overall, it was a reasonable internet service.

For the two years before that, when I was working at CambridgeDocs, we had a good internet service, where good means better than reasonable. It was mostly on, and whenever we faced any sort of problems in the internet service, there were enough people to look after it and make sure it was up and running in the minimum time possible. We could usually download a movie in one night, songs within minutes and youtube videos also streamed well. Overall, it was quiet an impressive connection we had at our office.

And for the four years before that, i.e. from 2002 to 2006 when I was doing my graduation from FAST-NU Lahore, we did have internet but… For the last one year or so the internet service was excellent. Although obviously we couldn’t download movies or watch youtube videos, but we didn’t face much problems googling and surfing the web generally. The initial years at FAST were somewhat worse because we had to first get ourselves registered to be able to use internet for a one hour slot, where yahoo or hotmail would normally open in 25~30 minutes. But I guess it was enough for our needs back then. In short, we did have internet for all four years of our stay at FAST.

Now, for the past one month or so, I did not have internet and I felt as if my life had come to a stand still. Although I don’t know if I do much work over the internet but the feeling of having an internet connection itself is quiet a relieving feeling. When I went to find out the available internet services, their packages and rates etc, I first thought Ufone wireless internet was better of all. They claimed unlimited download but then a friend told me that their unlimited actually meant 1.5 GB (I don’t know if it is true or not but that’s what I came to know), then I inquired about PTCL wireless broadband but they only had one package, that of 3.1 Mbps bandwidth and it was out of my budget. Besides, I went twice to the PTCL customer care centre, but the person responsible for dealing in wireless internet services was never present and that made me more annoyed. I also inquired about Worldcall wireless broadband and almost made up my mind to get it, but during filling out the form for new connection, I was told about some conditions that did not made it feasible to get wireless connection from Worldcall. I finally ordered the PTCL DSL and was told that it would take a minimum of 3 days to get the service installed and running on my premises.

This was 5th June when I ordered the PTCL DSL service. On the evening of 10th June, I called the PTCL help line and was informed that my request has been cancelled. Above that, the teller did not know why the request was cancelled, he could only tell me the status of my request. He asked me to go to the nearest telephone exchange to get the reasons of the cancellation of my DSL request (what good was that teller for if I had to personally go to the nearest exchange, PTCL probably can never change). Luck had it for me because I was informed from the nearest telephone exchange that the DSL did not work in my area, and the customer care representative who booked my request didn’t know about it. I was made to wait 6 days to come to know which area doesn’t have the accessibility to PTCL DSL internet service.

This was way more than enough for me. I was not able to stay in touch with friends, stay up to date with current affairs, I hadn’t read a newspaper since almost a month (as Im used to reading online news :S), hadn’t written anything on my blog for long, hadn’t read the blogs I have subscribed to, wasn’t able to apply for my internship, couldn’t check my email and much much more. I have more than 5000 unread items in my Google Reader, more than a 200 unread emails in my inbox, many friend and other requests and a few email messages on facebook and what not.

Now I finally have a cable internet connection. I hope this continues to work good, and I hope I don’t get any excuses now for not staying in touch with friends or not keeping myself updated on current affairs. A few days back I wrote a post titled “Back on track?” because I thought I had wasted a lot of time since I came to Lahore, but I didn’t actually got back on track, I really hope now I get back on track, and I hope that this internet connection stays with me for the time I am here in Lahore. I can only hope, and that’s probably what all of us can do…

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Back on track?

Posted by Haris Gulzar on June 3, 2009

It has been more than a month now since I wrote my last post. I was really missing my blog, I was missing writing, I so wanted to spend some time writing just anything that comes to my mind, I wanted to let out the boredom filled inside me, so here I am. I really hope my readers missed me 😛

Well, I reached back Lahore on the 16th of May. I have spent more than half of a month doing just nothing (that’s exactly what Im best at). The kind of reception I got when I reached back is really worth mentioning. Muneeba had made more than 20 cards for me. These cards included the “Welcome home” cards, “I miss you, I love you” cards, and also a few general cards that had butterflies and flowers on them. She had decorated the cupboards and walls of my room with all these cards. I just loved it all. She was really missing me, and this was the best feeling I had when I got back home.

Actually, getting back home in itself is the best feeling. I say this because I know how I spent the last 15 days in Karachi when I knew my departure was only 15 days away. Those 15 days took like 60 days to end (probably because I had my exams in those 15 days), but the first 15 days I spent here in Lahore were gone in 60 seconds. It’s only now that I want to do something other than doing nothing.

I have a few tasks that I have to get done before I go back to Karachi, which is about 3 months away from now. These tasks include doing an internship somewhere for at least six weeks; for which I’ll have to first start applying at places. Actually, I don’t have internet here with me so I couldn’t apply for internship through email, and this certainly makes you think how the hell am I posting on my blog if I don’t have internet here. Well, I have already started praying for the dialup internet to work tonight, and I really hope I post this piece of writing on my blog the very day I write it. Anyways, the other tasks include writing at least 3 posts a week irrespective of the internship workload, start (and hopefully finish) reading the novel Amar Bail, and get Muneeba stop eating junk food and start having lunches and dinners with the other members of the family, and more importantly, get her start drinking at least a glass of milk every day. Ohh and yeah, I have to get a decent internet connection as well (for some reason, I’d prefer wireless internet that is economical as well, and obviously has a good download speed, with no download volume cap; so any suggestions???)

I really hope this list of tasks puts me back on track. I hope I continue writing and reading, and applying for my internship :-)…

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Things aren’t good up here…

Posted by Haris Gulzar on April 9, 2009

The intensity with which I felt the pain is just not possible for me to describe. I literally sat there for at least 30 seconds, holding my head tight with both of my hands, trying to figure out what had gone wrong. I hadn’t even woken up completely when my eyes were forced wide open for a couple of seconds, and then forced back closed for those 30 seconds that I sat there. This was how I was welcomed at the IBA hostel. They say, hostel life teaches you a lot, and I can’t agree more. It sure does teach you a lot. The most important lesson it teaches you is to adapt yourself to the environment.

Well, basically, the washroom entrances here at IBA hostel, if measured from the entrance step to the top of the door, are a maximum of 6 feet tall. That’s the maximum high they are. And fortunately or otherwise, my height is 6 feet and a couple of inches. You can very well imagine what went wrong, especially when someone is new to the place. Sometimes we learn things the hard way.

The story doesn’t end here. It wasn’t only once that this incident happened with me. What’s worse is, the washroom entrances aren’t of a constant height, and some washroom entrances are even less than 6 feet high. I was very well aware of bowing to an extent before entering or leaving the washrooms, but luck had it once more for me :(. This time I was hurrying to catch up Maghrib’s congregation and was leaving the bathroom area after performing ablution that I got hit again. It was even worse this time. This time it was another of the bathroom areas to greet me. I was fumed up to such an extent with this incident that I went straight to the office of the hostel incharge the very next morning to complain about the bathroom entrances being shorter than the height I reach even after I bow :(.

Another incident of the same nature occurred when I was walking in the nearby Rangers colony while reading some message on my mobile and hit straight into a window of a room. Im not sure if I was lucky or not, because that window wasn’t of glass, but of iron. This blow wasn’t that bad as those mentioned above. The window I struck into was quiet high, but I stood even higher, and this also happened in Karachi (yeah my experience here at Karachi hasn’t been so pleasant).

These are only some of the recent happenings with me, the story of my height and the associated luck is quite old. I remember when people would accuse me of concealing my age back when I was in school. I have always had to stand in the last row of all the important group pictures. Recently we had a PTC Battle of Minds competition (details here) at IBA, and my team was one of those shortlisted for the competition. Though we couldn’t make it to the next round, but for the group photo at the end of the day, I was standing with my team, the photographer was just about to hit the button when he came up to me and asked me to move a bit towards the rear end of the group because I was tall and there were people who weren’t properly visible because of me.

Whenever there has to be a row of people for a group photo, I have to stand at the back. Why don’t I deserve to stand right at the front and pose :). I even had to stand in the last row of the batch photo at FAST-NU. That was the most memorable picture of my life so far, the picture for which I waited four years, the picture that has all of my friends in it, and yet I have to struggle finding myself in that picture, only because I’m tall, that’s cruel.

There definitely are some positive aspects of being tall, especially when I don’t have to struggle too much to lift children high enough so that they can touch the fan, which children like the most, but there are more negative aspects as I have experienced, as there are positive aspects to it. It specially gets bad when my height becomes my own enemy and makes me suffer, and sometimes suffer too much…

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