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یہ وقت بھی گزر جائے گا ۔ ۔ ۔

Posted by Haris Gulzar on June 30, 2009

کسی بادشاہ نے اپنے ملک سے تمام پڑھے لکھے، عقلمند اور عالم قسم کے لوگوں‌کو جمع کیا اور ان سے پوچھا کہ کیا کوئی ایسا مشورہ، منتر یا مقولہ ہے کہ کو ہر قسم کے حالات میں کام کرے، ہر صورتحال اور ہر وقت میں اس ایک سے کام چل جائے۔ کوئی ایسا مشورہ جو کہ میں اگر اکیلے میں ہوں‌اور میرے ساتھ کوئی مشورہ کرنے والا نہ ہو تب بھی مجھے اس کا فائدہ ہو؟

تمام لوگ بادشاہ کی اس خواہش کو سن کر پریشان ہوگئے کہ کون سی ایسی بات ہے جو کہ ہروقت، ہر جگہ کام آئے؟ جو کہ ہر صورتحال، خوشی، غم، الم، آسائش، جنگ و جدل، ہار، جیت غرض‌کہ ہر جگہ فٹ ہو سکے؟ِ

کافی دیر آپس میں‌بحث و مباحثہ کے بعد ایک بوڑھے آدمی نے ایک تجویز پیش کی جسے تمام نے پسند کیا اور وہ بادشاہ کے دربار میں حاضر ہوئے۔

انہوں نے بادشاہ کی خدمت میں ایک کاغذ پیش کیا اور کہا کہ اس میں‌ وہ منتر موجود ہے جس کی خواہش آپ نے کی تھی۔ شرط صرف یہ ہے کہ آپ اس کو صرف اس وقت کھول کر دیکھیں گے جب آپ اکیلے ہوں اور آپ کو کسی کی مدد یا مشورہ درکار ہو۔ بادشاہ نے اس تجویز کومان کر کاغذ کو نہایت حفاظت سے اپنے پاس رکھ لیا۔

کچھ عرصے کے بعد پڑوسی دشمن ملک نے اچانک بادشاہ کے ملک پر حملہ کردیا۔ حملہ اتنا اچانک اور شدید تھا کہ بادشاہ اور اس کی فوج کو بری طرح شکست ہوئی۔ فوج نے اپنے بادشاہ کے ساتھ ملکر اپنے ملک کے دفاع کی بہت کوشش کی لیکن بالآخر انہیں محاذ سے پسپائی اختیار کرنی پڑی۔ دشمن ملک کے سپاہی بادشاہ کے پکڑنے اس کے پیچھے لگ گئے اور بادشاہ اپنی جان بچانے کے لیئے گھوڑے پر بھاگ نکلا۔ بھاگتے بھاگتے وہ پہاڑ کے اس مقام پر پہنچ گیا کہ جہاں دوسری طرف گہری کھائی تھی اور ایک طرف دشمن کے سپاہی اس کا پیچھا کرتے قریب سے قریب تر ہوتے جارہے تھے۔

اس صورتحال میں اسے اچانک اس منتر کا خیال آیا جو کہ اسے بوڑھے شخص نے دیا تھا۔ اس نے فورا اپنی جیب سے وہ کاغذ نکالا اور پڑھنا شروع کیا۔ اس کاغذ پر لکھا تھا کہ “یہ وقت بھی گذر جائے گا”

بادشاہ نے حیران ہوکر تین چار دفعہ اس تحریر کو پڑھا — اسے خیال آیا کہ یہ بات تو بالکل صحیح ہے۔ ابھی کل ہی وہ اپنی حکومت میں سکون کی زندگی گزار رہا تھا اور تمام عیش و آرام اسے میسر تھا اور آج وہ دشمن سے بچنے کیلیئے بھاگتا پھر رہا ہے؟ جب آرام اور عیش کے دن گذر گئے تو یقینا یہ وقت بھی گذر جائے گا۔ یہ سوچ کر اسے سکون آگیا اور وہ پہاڑ کے آس پاس کے قدرتی مناظر کو دیکھنے لگا۔ کچھ ہی دیر میں اسے گھوڑوں‌کے سموں کی آوازیں معدوم ہوتی سنائی دیں، شاید دشمن کے سپاہی کسی اور طرف نکل گئے تھے۔

بادشاہ ایک بہادر آدمی تھا۔ جنگ کے بعد اس نے اپنے لوگوں کا کھوج لگایا جو آس پاس کے علاقوں میں چھپے ہوئے تھے۔ اپنی بچی کھچی قوت کو مجتمع کرنے کے بعد اس نے دشمن پر حملہ کیا اور انہیں شکست دے دی۔ جب وہ جنگ جیت کے اپنی مملکت میں واپس جارہا تھا تو اس کے ملک کے تمام لوگ استقبال کے لیئے جمع تھے۔ اپنے بہادر بادشاہ کے استقبال کے لیئے لوگ شہر کی فصیل، گھروں کی چھتوں غرض کہ ہر جگہ پھول لیئے کھڑے تھے اور تمام راستے اس پر پھول نچھاور کرتے رہے۔ہر گلی کونے میں لوگ خوشی سے رقص کررہے تھے اور بادشاہ کے شان میں قصیدے گا رہے تھے۔ بادشاہ بھی اپنے فوجی قافلے کے ہمراہ بڑی شان سے کھڑا لوگوں کے نعروں کا جواب دے رہا تھا۔ اس نے سوچا کہ دیکھو لوگ ایک بہادر کا استقبال کیسے کرتے ہیں، میری عزت میں اب اور اضافہ ہوگیا ہے، اور کیوں‌نہ ہوتا، دشمنوں کو ماربھگانا کوئی اتنا آسان نہیں تھا اور خصوصا ایک مکمل شکست کے بعد۔

یہ سوچتے سوچتے اچانک اسے اس کاغذ کے مضمون کا خیال آگیا “یہ وقت بھی گذر جائے گا”۔ اس خیال کے ساتھ ہی اس کے چہرے کے تاثرات بدل گئے۔ اپنے آپ پر غرور ایک ہی لمحہ میں ختم ہوگیا اور اس نے سوچا کہ اگر یہ وقت بھی گذر جائے گا تو یہ وقت میرا نہیں۔ یہ لمحے یہ حالات میرے نہیں، یہ ہار اور یہ جیت بھی میری نہیں۔ہم صرف دیکھنے والے ہیں، ہر چیز کو گذر جانا ہے اور ہم صرف ایک گواہ ہیں۔

ہم صرف محسوس کرتے ہیں۔ زندگی آتی ہے اور چلی جاتی ہے۔ خوشی اور غم کا بھی یہی حال ہے۔ اپنی زندگی کی حقیقت کو جانچیں۔ اپنی زندگی میں خوشی، مسرتوں، جیت، ہار اور غم کے لمحات کو یاد کریں۔ کیا وہ وقت مستقل تھا؟ وقت چاہے کیسا بھی ہو، آتا ہے اور چلا جاتا ہے۔

زندگی گذر جاتی ہے۔ ماضی کے دوست بھی بچھڑ جاتے ہیں۔ جو آج دوست ہیں وہ کل نہیں رہیں‌گے۔ ماضی کے دشمن بھی نہیں ہیں اور آج کے بھی ختم ہوجائیں گے۔ اس دنیا میں کچھ بھی کوئی بھی مستقل اور لازوال نہیں۔

ہر چیز تبدیل ہو جاتی ہے لیکن تبدیلی کا قانون نہیں بدلتا۔ اس بات کو اپنی زندگی کے تناظر میں سوچیں۔آپ نے کئی تبدیلیوں کو زندگی میں‌دیکھا ہو گا، کئی چیزوں کو تبدیل ہوتے ہوئے مشاہدہ کیا ہو گا۔ آپ کی زندگی میں‌کئی بار غم اور شکست کے حالات آئے ہوں‌گے اور اسی طرح آپ نے کئی پرمسرت لمحات بھی گذارے ہوں‌گے۔ دونوں قسم کے وقت کو گذر جانا ہے، کچھ بھی مستقل نہیں ۔ ہم اصل میں‌کیا ہیں پھر؟ اپنے اصل چہرے کو پہچانیئے ۔ ہمارا چہرہ اصل نہیں ہے۔ اس نے بھی وقت کے ساتھ ساتھ تبدیل ہو جانا ہے۔ تاہم آپ کے اندر کچھ ایسا ہے کہ جو کبھی تبدیل نہیں ہوتا اور ہمیشہ ایسا ہی رہتا ہے۔

کیا چیز ہے جو کہ غَیر مُتغَیَّر ہے؟ شاید آپ کے اندر کا صحیح انسان۔ آپ صرف تبدیلی کے گواہ ہیں، محسوس کریں اور اسے سمجھیں ۔

اپنی زندگی کی منفی تبدیلیوں کو محسوس کریں اور اپنی ذات سے اس پر قابو پانے کی کوشش کریں –

رہنے والی ذات صرف اللہ کی ہے اور رہنے والے ہمارے اعمال —— سوچیں —— اور عمل کریں ۔ ۔ ۔ ۔ ۔

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The “Pakistani Style”

Posted by Haris Gulzar on June 28, 2009

I have always criticized the way Pakistani media presents the picture of Pakistan in front of the world. Showing war within country, lack of peace and security, lack of satisfaction within people, hatred amongst people of one area for the people of another area, blood, dead bodies, corruption and what not? All of this might not actually be a wrong picture, but I have always wondered if anyone out there ever thought about the impression outsiders would get about Pakistan. Pakistan is way way better than what is portrayed on the media, and this media does not only consists of news channels,  but newspapers, radio stations, and even bloggers play a major role in presenting Pakistan to the world.

But, on the other hand, I also think the media should very positively criticize openly, to issues that need attention. Issues, that definitely are a dent in the image of Pakistan but with a small step from each Pakistani, can be sorted out. Issues, that definitely aren’t leading Pakistan to any successes, but can be turned into success factors. Issues, that are issues for now, but can be made into reasons for Pakistan’s growth and success Insha-Allah. This post discusses one issue of this very sort.

I happened to visit WAPDA office a couple of days back. I had to apply for a new connection of electricity. I asked the procedure of filing an application, the required documents, the time it’ll take for the entire process etc. I was given the forms to be signed by the owner of the land and a list of the required documents to be submitted. When I submitted the application, the officer who received the application file told me that a surveyor would come to the site to see the load and where the electricity pole is, and I’ll have to treat that surveyor in “Pakistani style”.  Yeah, that’s exactly what his words were. He was blunt in saying this, as if it was part of his training to guide every customer this way. The expression “Pakistani style” was supposed to be a code word, but the tone and facial expressions with which he said it didn’t let it remain a code at all.

The way I was told about how it all works, I couldn’t even ask that officer what exactly did he mean? I was expected to understand the meaning myself. Being a Pakistani, it was implicit that I am aware of the Pakistani style. Why has bribing become a Pakistani style? Who has helped this style flourish to this extent that government officers direct their customers to adopt this style when applying for new connections? Isn’t it us promoting this style, and what’s worse is, associating our country with this as well :-(. What will it take to eliminate this thinking from the government officers minds that it is a Pakistani style? To make them believe in this country, and believe in themselves. Not only them, but to make everyone believe that Pakistan is not what they think it is…

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The green flag…

Posted by Haris Gulzar on June 24, 2009

Today I got a text message from an x-colleague which I think is good enough to put on my blog.

In all the prevailing anarchy, chaos, instability and bombings, eleven men in green bring home a cup. A cup unexpected, a cup to be welcomed with nothing but tears, countless tears to welcome a good news, finally.

Time for the world to know that we are not just terrorists, dont just blast bombs; we hit sixes, we crash the stumps, we thrash the whole world down, we are the world champions.

The green flag is high. Its not just a cup, its a statement to everyone that PAKISTAN STILL ROCKS!

PAKISTAN ZINDABAD!!!

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The above words are as I received them, but I disagree with the words that say “…we are not just terrorists, dont just blast bombs…”. Actually, we do nothing of this sort. We are not terrorists at all. Those doing this are not amongst us, the green flag is not for them…

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Love for this world…

Posted by Haris Gulzar on June 23, 2009

The final of the T20 cricket world cup was due to start at 8:00 PM Pakistan time, and Maghrib prayers are offered at around 8:20 PM (Lahore). When I was going to the Masjid for Maghrib prayers, I sent a text message to a friend to keep me updated about the score. I already knew that Sri-Lanka was batting first so I could afford missing some overs, but still, I asked that friend to keep sending me messages if anything happens. I mean, rather than asking him to stop watching the match and offer prayers, I asked him to watch each and every ball and update me after every over. I’m really not sure if I went to offer my prayers for Allah or just for the sake of offering prayers, as all of my attention was definitely towards the match.

I had turned my mobile to silent mode so that it doesn’t start beeping when I get any message, which I was obviously expecting to receive every 5 minutes. Though its vibration alert was on, hence I didn’t care if I get disturbed with every incoming message, which obviously diverted my attention to the cricket match. And If I got a message in less than an overs time, it definitely meant a wicket had fallen because I knew my friend won’t message me if any six or a four was hit. The Sri-Lankan wickets were falling quickly as well, so you can very well imagine how much I would have heard the Imam and how much would I have felt my mobile vibrating in my jeans. Besides, if by chance the Imam once or twice succeeded in getting my attention, I could only think of the amount of time the Imam was taking in reciting the Surah’s. It starts taking longer in prayers when you aren’t really praying, but then, do we ever actually offer prayers with full attention?

Sri-Lankans managed to put up a competitive score, hence it was definite that the Pakistan innings would be worth watching as well, but it was Isha time when only a few overs of the Pakistan innings were bowled. I wanted to say no when my chacha asked me to accompany him to the masjid, but somehow I couldn’t. So I sent a message to that friend once again. What great friends I have for sure (Y), because he replied positively that time as well. As soon as the prayers ended, I met a cousin who was hurrying out of the masjid inviting me to his place for the match saying we can offer witr after the match ends. He probably didn’t have good friends like I did. I could have managed not going to his place, which happened to be right in the front of the masjid, because I was being updated constantly (hence I offered witr in the same state of mind, with my mobile vibrating every now and then :-().

I just recalled a situation that I went through a few days back and probably many others would have experienced it as well. What if when you bow/prostrate with money in your shirts pocket, say, a note of Rs. 500 or that of Rs. 1000 and it fells off. Worst of all, if it is a four raka’at prayer and the note fell off in the first raka’at, doesn’t it distract us for the rest of our prayers. I guess this situation is a true measure of how much love we have for this world 😦

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Glass half full…

Posted by Haris Gulzar on June 19, 2009

Do we ever look at the positive side of anything at all? Why are we so pessimistic always? Why do we start blaming others for our pessimistic assumptions? Why can’t we, for once, see the glass half full?

Pakistan beat South Africa yester-night to enter the Finals of the T20 World Cup. Team SA, who were ranked as the favorites to win this tournament weren’t of a good match to the Pakistan team. But was it really Pakistan’s performance and will power that lead us to the victory? Or was it a fluke? Or was SA not in a mood to win the match? Or was the match fixed?

Strange whenever Pakistan wins the match, no one thinks of the match being fixed, but you get to face one loss, especially if it is against India, everyone comes out so sure and confident that Pakistani players must have taken a hefty amount to handover the match to the opposing team. Is it only Pakistanis thinking this way for their very own team? Does this happen elsewhere as well?

Anyways, what I basically wanted to point out was, I heard many people say today that Younis Khan was full in mood to loose the match, but it was Afridi and Umer Gul who saved us. The reasons these people have are that Younis Khan wasn’t scoring when he came to the creeze for batting, and the run rate fell sharply as soon as Younis Khan came in to bat. Secondly, he gave an over to Fawad Alam at such a crucial time, and in such a pressure match, which clearly depicts that Younis Khan didn’t have good intentions.

How quickly do we run to conclusions. How quickly do we start blaming others for actions and decisions they take at crucial times. Why can’t Younis Khan think good for his team. Why is it wrong to give a new bowler a try. After all, no one from the SA team would have imagined Fawad Alam bowling an over, no one knows how fast or slow, how flighted or flat or on what line and length does this new bowler bowl. Why cant giving the ball to Fawad Alam be part of the strategy towards winning the game.

Good that we won the match Alhamdulillah, otherwise everyone would have definitely said that it was Younis Khan’s idiotic and silly decisions that made Pakistan loose the match. For us, the glass probably always remains half empty…

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Struggle…

Posted by Haris Gulzar on June 14, 2009

I have had to struggle hard for getting an internet connection at my home. For the last one month, I have only been using dialup internet and don’t really have words to explain how angry and irritated I felt whenever I had to use the dialup internet. And the reason I use the word “struggle” for getting an internet connection is a long story.

For the last 1 year in Karachi, we had a reasonable internet service provided to us (sometimes on and sometimes off) in each of the hostel rooms. Sometimes facebook and youtube were banned and sometimes we didn’t have internet for a day or even two days, but sometimes not only all the sites were made accessible but we also got download speeds of near a 100Kbps. So overall, it was a reasonable internet service.

For the two years before that, when I was working at CambridgeDocs, we had a good internet service, where good means better than reasonable. It was mostly on, and whenever we faced any sort of problems in the internet service, there were enough people to look after it and make sure it was up and running in the minimum time possible. We could usually download a movie in one night, songs within minutes and youtube videos also streamed well. Overall, it was quiet an impressive connection we had at our office.

And for the four years before that, i.e. from 2002 to 2006 when I was doing my graduation from FAST-NU Lahore, we did have internet but… For the last one year or so the internet service was excellent. Although obviously we couldn’t download movies or watch youtube videos, but we didn’t face much problems googling and surfing the web generally. The initial years at FAST were somewhat worse because we had to first get ourselves registered to be able to use internet for a one hour slot, where yahoo or hotmail would normally open in 25~30 minutes. But I guess it was enough for our needs back then. In short, we did have internet for all four years of our stay at FAST.

Now, for the past one month or so, I did not have internet and I felt as if my life had come to a stand still. Although I don’t know if I do much work over the internet but the feeling of having an internet connection itself is quiet a relieving feeling. When I went to find out the available internet services, their packages and rates etc, I first thought Ufone wireless internet was better of all. They claimed unlimited download but then a friend told me that their unlimited actually meant 1.5 GB (I don’t know if it is true or not but that’s what I came to know), then I inquired about PTCL wireless broadband but they only had one package, that of 3.1 Mbps bandwidth and it was out of my budget. Besides, I went twice to the PTCL customer care centre, but the person responsible for dealing in wireless internet services was never present and that made me more annoyed. I also inquired about Worldcall wireless broadband and almost made up my mind to get it, but during filling out the form for new connection, I was told about some conditions that did not made it feasible to get wireless connection from Worldcall. I finally ordered the PTCL DSL and was told that it would take a minimum of 3 days to get the service installed and running on my premises.

This was 5th June when I ordered the PTCL DSL service. On the evening of 10th June, I called the PTCL help line and was informed that my request has been cancelled. Above that, the teller did not know why the request was cancelled, he could only tell me the status of my request. He asked me to go to the nearest telephone exchange to get the reasons of the cancellation of my DSL request (what good was that teller for if I had to personally go to the nearest exchange, PTCL probably can never change). Luck had it for me because I was informed from the nearest telephone exchange that the DSL did not work in my area, and the customer care representative who booked my request didn’t know about it. I was made to wait 6 days to come to know which area doesn’t have the accessibility to PTCL DSL internet service.

This was way more than enough for me. I was not able to stay in touch with friends, stay up to date with current affairs, I hadn’t read a newspaper since almost a month (as Im used to reading online news :S), hadn’t written anything on my blog for long, hadn’t read the blogs I have subscribed to, wasn’t able to apply for my internship, couldn’t check my email and much much more. I have more than 5000 unread items in my Google Reader, more than a 200 unread emails in my inbox, many friend and other requests and a few email messages on facebook and what not.

Now I finally have a cable internet connection. I hope this continues to work good, and I hope I don’t get any excuses now for not staying in touch with friends or not keeping myself updated on current affairs. A few days back I wrote a post titled “Back on track?” because I thought I had wasted a lot of time since I came to Lahore, but I didn’t actually got back on track, I really hope now I get back on track, and I hope that this internet connection stays with me for the time I am here in Lahore. I can only hope, and that’s probably what all of us can do…

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Caring hurts…

Posted by Haris Gulzar on June 8, 2009

Some time back, I wrote a post titled “Food for thought” that had a few questions relating to life and the way we live our lives. One of the questions in that post was “Are relations important? Is it important to express their importance?” What I have gone through in the past couple of days has really made me think hard on this question.

Let me directly jump to the main theme of this post. How important can the relationship of care and trust be for a person? For someone, trusting a person and caring for that person would mean a world, but for someone, that very same caring attitude might even make his/her life hell. If I care for a person, I’d ask that person if he’s ok or not, I’d constantly ping that person to be sure that person is feeling good, I’d make that person tell me and share with me whatever there is in his mind that initially made him sad. I’d want to rectify and get rid of all the causes of sadness for that person. But won’t this care hurt that person? Won’t this constant pinging make that person live in his past and not allow him to come out of the tragedies he went through? Should I leave that person alone? Should I give that person enough time with himself to try forgetting his past? Does a caring friend constantly ping and ask his friend if he’s ok or not, or does he leave his friend alone in trying to make his friend comfortable? This takes me to the second question of my post “Food for thought” that asks “Is loneliness important? Why or why not?”

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Back on track?

Posted by Haris Gulzar on June 3, 2009

It has been more than a month now since I wrote my last post. I was really missing my blog, I was missing writing, I so wanted to spend some time writing just anything that comes to my mind, I wanted to let out the boredom filled inside me, so here I am. I really hope my readers missed me 😛

Well, I reached back Lahore on the 16th of May. I have spent more than half of a month doing just nothing (that’s exactly what Im best at). The kind of reception I got when I reached back is really worth mentioning. Muneeba had made more than 20 cards for me. These cards included the “Welcome home” cards, “I miss you, I love you” cards, and also a few general cards that had butterflies and flowers on them. She had decorated the cupboards and walls of my room with all these cards. I just loved it all. She was really missing me, and this was the best feeling I had when I got back home.

Actually, getting back home in itself is the best feeling. I say this because I know how I spent the last 15 days in Karachi when I knew my departure was only 15 days away. Those 15 days took like 60 days to end (probably because I had my exams in those 15 days), but the first 15 days I spent here in Lahore were gone in 60 seconds. It’s only now that I want to do something other than doing nothing.

I have a few tasks that I have to get done before I go back to Karachi, which is about 3 months away from now. These tasks include doing an internship somewhere for at least six weeks; for which I’ll have to first start applying at places. Actually, I don’t have internet here with me so I couldn’t apply for internship through email, and this certainly makes you think how the hell am I posting on my blog if I don’t have internet here. Well, I have already started praying for the dialup internet to work tonight, and I really hope I post this piece of writing on my blog the very day I write it. Anyways, the other tasks include writing at least 3 posts a week irrespective of the internship workload, start (and hopefully finish) reading the novel Amar Bail, and get Muneeba stop eating junk food and start having lunches and dinners with the other members of the family, and more importantly, get her start drinking at least a glass of milk every day. Ohh and yeah, I have to get a decent internet connection as well (for some reason, I’d prefer wireless internet that is economical as well, and obviously has a good download speed, with no download volume cap; so any suggestions???)

I really hope this list of tasks puts me back on track. I hope I continue writing and reading, and applying for my internship :-)…

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